december 12 2007

i feel like the thread is almost ready to break i am slipping and content about it...i feel trapped and like my hands are tied and theres no way out no way to hide...my only way to get away is to die...i am slowly waiting for the day i have the courage to take the pills and end my life... when will that be...i have so much pain bottling up inside... why cant it just disappear...will i ever feel alright...will i ever do anything right