today

Well thikngs seem to be working out much more today. It has been over 24 hours since I last used and I took a big step by talking to a friend that I thought was never going to talk to me again if I relapsed. I had contemplated suicide several times and began making the plans for it recently. But things seem to be looking up today and appear to be working out for me to get away from drugs and start some self discovery and work on me more than i had ever done I hope it works out. This will be a chance for me to do some self exploration and maybe find my place in life and discover what things I really enjoy. i may find some happiness within while searching within. i think this is going to be great and will help me alot. I hope it works out. mY friend really cares but she also needs to make sure she keeps herself safe and sets boundries to protect her and her kids.